Hey, ya’ll, it’s been awhile. I disappeared off the face of the Earth for a month (at least online), haven’t been updating, reading, or writing, and have done basically nothing of what I swore up and down was going to happen. I never got around to creating my NaNoWriMo prep series, all of my October pages for my bullet journal are empty, and I read exactly zero (0) of the books in my October TBR post.
Basically, the past month has been a bit of a stinking hole of anxiety and depression for myself and the rest of my family. At the beginning of the month our landlords announced to my family that they intended on selling the house and that we had 60 (ish?) days to vacate. This puts our move-out right around the beginning of December.
What’s better to add to that holiday stress than packing up and moving out of state in the middle of it all? I’m planning to stay behind and continue living in California, so moving out on my own and being 100% independent comes with it’s own set of complete terrors and anxieties in my mind.
But now it’s November 1st; it’s a new month, and the perfect time to start over. There’s a lot happening in my life right now, and for a little while I thought NaNoWriMo wasn’t such a good idea. Why add to an already large pile of stress? But then I remembered that while NaNoWriMo can be stressful at times, it’s fun. It’s my favorite month of the whole year almost purely for this writing challenge alone.
Writing has always been my form of escape, so why not… escape? NaNoWriMo is the perfect opportunity to let off some steam and find something fun and positive to focus on in my life right now, so that’s exactly why I’m participating. Unfortunately, I’m in a very inactive region on the NaNoWriMo site, and this is a bummer because the community is one of the best parts about this whole thing.
But I’m not gonna let that stop me! I’ll have my own write-ins and celebrations when I hit my goals and I’m still going to enjoy myself and have some fun.
Last night I had my own kick-off party; I watched Ghost Adventures Live, ate candy, drank boba tea, chatted with fellow NaNoers on my Facebook group, and did some prep while watching Netflix’s The Curious Creations of Christine McConnel (and I still don’t know how to feel about it).
This morning was coffee and Butterfinger with more writing, but you know what? I have a good feeling about this month. It’s gonna be a roller coaster for sure, but at least I can hope for a fun ride.
Happy Halloween, and good luck to my fellow NaNoers!